I felt like I was reading my own words!
Maybe that is what some of us feel, sometimes, as being mothers. There is no prestige, awards, or levels of accomplishment. There is the everyday.
I mean, there are the wonders.
smiles.first words. first steps.giggles.I love you's.hugs.cuddles
But no one notices what we put in everyday.
In reality, I think this is exacerbated by the lack of sleep, and lack of personal time. Really exacerbated.
That is why I feel my pendulum has finally swung the other way.
I am MOTIVATED again! I am getting sleep (mostly), and have found an outlet that I LOVE. It gets me out of the house, and around other people who are interested in the same things I am. It pushes me to be smarter, more social, more prepared. I don't feel badly about being away from my children (thank you for finally weaning little E).
So, for anyone that has been worried about me not being chipper in my postings this past year, now you know why. I love being a mother, I love my babies, I love having constructive me time. It makes me whole.