Saturday, February 26, 2011

While reading a friend's blog today I realized that the pendulum has swung. She writes about being, not crazy-hecktic-depressed-bored, but being UNMOTIVATED as a mother of two small children. Unmotivated to keep the house clean, to go out and make a difference like we used to.

I felt like I was reading my own words!

Maybe that is what some of us feel, sometimes, as being mothers. There is no prestige, awards, or levels of accomplishment. There is the everyday.

I mean, there are the wonders.

smiles.first words. first steps.giggles.I love you's.hugs.cuddles


But no one notices what we put in everyday.

In reality, I think this is exacerbated by the lack of sleep, and lack of personal time. Really exacerbated.

That is why I feel my pendulum has finally swung the other way.

I am MOTIVATED again! I am getting sleep (mostly), and have found an outlet that I LOVE. It gets me out of the house, and around other people who are interested in the same things I am. It pushes me to be smarter, more social, more prepared. I don't feel badly about being away from my children (thank you for finally weaning little E).

So, for anyone that has been worried about me not being chipper in my postings this past year, now you know why. I love being a mother, I love my babies, I love having constructive me time. It makes me whole.


Tasha said...

Working where I do and living where I live has exposed me to a high level of depression amongst young mothers almost on a daily basis. Of course the severity of the depression varies but I definitely can see that there is an unrequited lifestyle accompanied by motherhood. I commend you for being a beautiful mother and want to tell you THANK you for all you do - especially the unseen effort that takes energy on a daily basis.

Amanda said...

Thanks. Love your blossoms. Spring cheers everything up.

jo said...

Yes I agree many can relate...I can! So what did you find that you love to do? Love you!